Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Black Beauty

What is the color of beauty? Is there such a thing? We all love the way black is slimming or the way black is sleek. So why, when it is a skin tone, do we not see it for the beauty that it is? Perhaps we forget our history lessons and miss the importance of ebony in the rainbow of America. What would Sojourner Truth say if she saw how America remakes beauty in a plastic fashion? We are afraid of color altogether. I decided today to examine this concept through a character of a teenage girl in a U.S. History class. I named her Jayla which means "one who is special." Maybe if she heard Sojourner Truth she would love her ebony skin as much as I do. I am a white woman and I owe my freedom and my struggle for equality in a world dominated by men to many women before me, but today Sojourner Truth spoke to me: 'Aint I a women? 



I'm pleased with how Jayla reminds me of who I want to be on the inside: colorblind and proud of my womanhood. I can hardly wait for you to meet her in the novel: Invisible Wings.

Here is a sneak peak:
"And what is happening matters most. Jayla knew that the woman pushing to the front of the room would bring the other half of the storm. Jayla could see it the eyes of the aged ebony woman in a lacey bonnet and white shawl wrapped tightly around her shoulders as she navigated the eye of the storm to the other side of the hurricane. When she opened her mouth a tidal wave of polished glass, pebbles and sea creatures pounded the shore as had never been seen before. Her words were grains of sand that lodged in everyone’s hair, their teeth and in between their toes.

Wall, chilern, whar dar is so much racket dar must be somethin' out o' kilter. I tink dat 'twixt de niggers of de Souf and de womin at de Norf, all talkin' 'bout rights, de white men will be in a fix pretty soon. But what's all dis here talkin' 'bout? Dat man ober dar say dat womin needs to be helped into carriages, and lifted ober ditches, and to hab de best place everywhar. Nobody eber helps me into carriages, or ober mud-puddles, or gibs me any best place! And ain't I a woman? Look at me! Look at my arm! I have ploughed, and planted, and gathered into barns, and no man could head me! And ain't I a woman? I could work as much and eat as much as a man – when I could get it – and bear de lash as well! And ain't I a woman? I have borne thirteen chilern, and seen 'em mos' all sold off to slavery, and when I cried out with my mother's grief, none but Jesus heard me! And ain't I a woman? Den dey talks 'bout dis ting in de head; what dis dey call it?

Jayla whispered, “Intellect.”

Dat's it, honey. What's dat got to do wid womin's rights or nigger's rights? If my cup won't hold but a pint, and yourn holds a quart, wouldn't ye be mean not to let me have my little half-measure full. Den dat little man in back dar, he say women can't have as much rights as men, 'cause Christ wan't a woman! Whar did your Christ come from? Whar did your Christ come from? From God and a woman! Man had nothin' to do wid Him.
  
As the truth washed over the crowd, some cheered others mumbled, and Jayla stooped down to pick up a perfectly polished piece of red glass. It shone like a ruby in her palm. She held it up to the sun breaking through the storm clouds and saw for the first time the beauty of the dark color of her hand.
You'll have to read the book to find out what happens next!

As a side note, I remember my friend Carol Hanlon who passed away a few years ago. She told me that when I got old enough I would realize there is solidarity among women. When we are no long obsessed with youth and competitive about men or mates, we realize that it is only in the company of other women that we can delve deep into our womanhood. I miss her. She was so wise and beautiful. She was a nudist and a biker and a teacher. She was beautiful in every way that mattered.

Janell Chavez copyright @ 2010 

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Helen of Troy



Helen of TroyHelen of Troy by Margaret George

My rating: 3 of 5 stars


OK--I want to say that I really wanted to like this book, nay, I wanted to love it. But I didn't. It was long and windy, like the steep hill of the citadel Margaret wrote about. In all honesty, I couldn't finish the last 40 pages. I just didn't want to do it. I am sorry Ms. George.



The story telling from the beginning was cold and stoic; all the characters were marbleized statues of heroes and heroines of Greek mythology that should have had you standing on the edge of your bed screaming for the next exciting thing. I kept thinking, is life in TROY so boring? The portrayal of Paris and Hector were flat and uninspiring. I kept thinking why would Helen run away with a "boy" who could ignite her passions more than an experienced man who craved her body, but she couldn't surrender her soul? I think this is the biggest problem writers have when attempting to explain WHY Helen ran away with Paris, or was she kidnapped, please make up your mind before you write about it. It's as if Margaret was afraid to really show WHY--without this compelling relationship the story just continues flatly. The story of Troy and Achilles and Odysseus is full of blood, guts, sex, intrigue, quiet passion, longing, hate...and none of these jumped out at me. It felt like reading a research paper that was way too long.



I feel bad giving 3 stars to an established writer, but it felt like she just wrote this to make a deadline...





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Monday, September 13, 2010

What to write...


I want to have something to say, but feel rather blank. This is the third start at my blog just now. Random things keep popping into my head: divorce, bobble headed women, that music video I just watched on someone’s blog entitled Are men Are Liars, and the strange swaying of my patio umbrella while I sat under it with my feet in the pool. There was no wind and it freaked me out. I am wondering why Y and R killed off C______. And why is Allen on Two and a Half Men so freaking annoying. I mean WHY is that show still on the air? I just realized I watched way too much television today.

So I’m going to smoke a cigarette (I’m French today, so it’s ok) and maybe, I’ll decide. My dog just groaned as if he understands my dilemma. OK, I’m also Italian everyday, so I’m going to take my wine with me as I contemplate. If that umbrella sways around in a circle again, I am coming straight back in here.

You know the beauty of this process is that for me, time will pass, and for you it literally won’t. You’ll just read the next sentence…wow, that’s like time travel.
See, that didn’t take long. Something ran up the fence and well, I ran back in here. I love my patio, but why does it seem so scary at night? I think I’m done. Maybe tomorrow will prove more productive. That's kind of what I'm afraid of out there...


Sunday, September 12, 2010

About a dog...

I find my dog a great inspiration. He is loyal. He is always at my feet. And he is my favorite color: chocolate. Hug your dog today:) Hey, is that Arnold on the television in the back ground?

How did he come to me? I was driving one day and a voice just beamed into my head: today you will go to the mall, you will see a chocolate lab in the window, it will be a boy and you will buy him. I did and I did. Best money I ever spent.